Endings

As 2021 comes closer to its ending now I would like to honor this blog that started at the very end of 2020. The name itself “ Unraveling the Ripened Soul” still fits… I am still Unraveling and Ripening. The goal is to “Become” very delicious! I have a feeling 2022 is going to be a fiery blaze of burning away all that is no longer serving the highest Divine Purposes.

What inspired me to begin a blog was the feeling in my soul that I needed to complete a chronicle of my journey towards wholeness. Some parts of my soul's progress stood out and made their way into this blog, other stories and tales are headed for the fire or are already dead and gone.

This creative endeavor challenged me each week to complete something “good enough” by a certain date so as to be published. In the beginning I was producing a piece a week and then went to every other week, which worked out better, quality over quantity won out. Getting up very early at 4:30 am to write was wise and hard, I was always glad once the lights went on and I had my green tea IV going, because once the day sets in, it's tough to go back to a level of quiet needed to write; on top of this writing challenge was the discipline to create an accompanying art expression that authentically supported the written part.. Sometimes I had ”nothing”. Some of the entries reflect that, oh well.

But alas this process is also about letting go of perfectionism. I heard a spiritual teacher say recently "nobody really cares that much about this writing/art you labor over and most wont even read it”, except a select few. I'm ok with that, as I did this for other reasons. “Cathartic legacy” feels nice to me and closure to this part of the journey, as my friend Trish says: “ bam done!”

“Passion and Magic are rare gems and come on their own terms and timing.”

They can't be forced or bought and are given by grace, there is no guarantee about that either.” Bhavani-Mary

This blog would not have been born were it not for a very special person named Nichol Skaggs who from the very beginning of its conception acted as my accountability partner, and kindhearted witness, regularly we would meet to go over a myriad of details and technology stuff that I was not clear about, she designed and published all the finished pieces I sent her, faithfully and beautifully. It has been a wonderful balance to be able to work together this way. As a result we have both been gifted by each other’s deepening friendship and recognition of each other as Soul Sisters.That part of this process has been perfect, I learned to ask for help as needed. Projects get accomplished quicker and maybe with a better outcome than when I think I know everything and work all alone. Accountability kicks procrastination and excuse- makings lazy-ass too!

2021 has been quite a year at all levels as everyone knows, everyone on the planet is impacted by this Great Change occurring. As difficult and at times scary as the ever changing “News” seems, ( most of it lies) I am glad things are happening that have been destined to happen in order for expansion and evolution to occur on this planet and for Human Beings to come Awake finally.

I was at the Sat Yoga Ashram when year two of Covid was underway. It was there high up in the crystal clear rainforest of Costa Rica that I committed myself to another deeper layer of Unraveling the Ripened Soul while at the Ashrams Wisdom School and where the practice of writing and arting for this blog became a holy ritual. Shunyamurti says: “You don't decide to come here, you are brought here by Source.”

I am not sure what will happen going forward, does anyone? They say to live fully present means to Be Content with Not Knowing what's around the corner. It might be better and more fun to not try to know everything and just stay open..

So wrapping up this momentous year here's the “Gold” turned to Wisdom that came through me.

Beauty Balance and Order matters to me.

It's nice to have friends and community all over the world, that's what travel and technology has brought into my life-Jai Zoomarama!!

I can have more than one home and it can be wherever life takes me whether for a short or longer stay. It's nice to have a base camp to return to though. I love Michigan.

Enjoy inviting others over to visit, not worrying so much about my comfort all of the time and if my house is perfect enough. Community isn't in some distant future it just shows up when it does. Have extra food and an extra mattress ready.You could be greatly blessed by who comes to visit.

Be more flexible and willing to change directions and plans, nothing lasts even the most cherished of things. Life is not velcro, learn to let go of clinging.

Be more in the flow. Cold water is part of the deal.

Grow up, The planet needs adults.

Freedom is not Free, it cost everything you Thought you needed or wanted.

Be glad you are able to handle criticism and tension with calm nonreactivity, your body will too.

Be willing to experiment and change course if something else calls, even if it feels uncertain and produces angst and uncertainty, take the time to read the fine print on this soul contract called Earth Life-

Don't let age stop you, your soul is ageless and immortal, believe it and embody fearless openness.

Sample new ways of “unknown everything”, claim intelligence and critical thinking,you don't get clear without first being confused-

Seek Knowledge and truth and then use these priceless gifts to be healthy, wealthy and generous with your bounty and boundarylessness potentials.

Trust what you know and trust even the memories of what you forgot you once knew as everything taken wrongly will be returned in time and with interest!

Nothing is ever wasted. Laugh at Lack and lazy making.

Use and enjoy every moment of this precious life to expand and evolve…remember naps are holy.

Forgive everyone for the “whole enchilada” and watch letting go , Real- Detachment is priceless.

Love your family and others but don't enmesh and get caught in their bullshit.Your energy is precious-

Trust your own unique knowing, dreams, imaginings and divine hearted intentions, you never know your funny little idea or hunch may be the next “tweak” that sets this world right-

Laugh and cry and feel all of this Amazing episode of Being Here, fuck the matrix.

Let go of wanting to be loved and seen and you will become Love itself.

These times and this year are what all the great saints and sages have prophesied would come about…I am glad and honored to be here to have made the journey thus far. I am here to remember all I ever knew and forgot and to return to Love.

Amen-

This writing by Kimberly Jonas fts”

“There is a place

Much like the very back

Of your least used closet

Where shadows hang heavy

Tight corners cinch together

In conspired solidarity,

There is mystery

About what you stored there

Ten or twenty years ago

Thick and all present.

Before you go and

Snap on the brash

Bare bulb overhead

To banish your fear,

Keep things moving,

Eliminate the unsettling

purple -gray murk with

A quick flick of your wrist

Consider-

Excavating with

Your touch, your

Sensory memory,

Cave-exploring with

Eyes wide open to

What you cannot see

But is nonetheless there,

Moving slowly enough

That there is no danger

Of slamming into

Something unfamiliar,

Bringing bruises

To the surface

Impatience got

The better of you.

When hands get sweaty,

Your breath shortens

Because it feels as if

Its taking too long,

Your pulse sharp and insistent

In the curve of your neck

Your tongue uncomfortably dry

As you pray intently for

Instant gratification or at least

A tiny mote of light

Consider-

Something is happening

Here in the inky hollows,

Phenomenon made possible

Only by the choice to remain

Shrouded in the pitch black,

Where imperfect memories

Naturally rise to the surface

To be challenged by

The truth of what is

Here right now rather than

What you may have thought was there

And how it should be.

Let yourself rest here,

Be the contours of

Your life before, the dust

And water stained pages

Of who you used to be

In stark contrast to the you

That is standing here now and

Consider-

Learning how to move

In the dark, wait patiently for

Shapes to reveal themselves

Will yes, sometimes terrify you,

Strip you of all comfort and the

Fleeting-but-worth-any-sacrifice

Feeling of certainty

Yet will always teach

Something you might not

Otherwise learn if

You were not to blindly run

The other direction

Toward the light

Without coming to know

What it is to stay here

A little while longer.

“My end is my Beginning”

-Neville Goddard

About the art: Well it's a mixture of the last few things I have created this year, nothing too spectacular.. Who knows what I'll find inspiring in 2022. The photos are from Costa Rica during my last stay in 2021 while staying at the Sat Yoga Ashram, one of my homes away from home.

I love you.